Yesterday, I attended a workshop where I was able to catch a glimpse and give feedback to presenters for a Common Core Workshop. I realized that I have so much to learn.
I didn't even realize that there were content standards on top of the practice standards. How was I going to able to give feedback to folks who knew so much?
I was grateful to my friend who was patient with me when I confused additive reasoning with proportional reasoning. These standards challenge me and I have a lot to learn!
I watched the presentations and soaked it in. I learned a lot. I found out more. There is a group of teachers out there who sacrifice a great deal of time to help us understand how to improve our teaching. And they all had full time teaching jobs to boot.
They give up a lot of Saturdays to teach, learn, and create. Everything they do sounds so interesting and I want to get involved. But, I hesitate. I can't even keep up with this daily blog.
I can't help but judge myself a little. I learned a long time ago that I can easily get in over my head with my involvement in my career. I fear turning 55 and wishing I had enjoyed life more. So, I try to set boundaries my work time for self care.I have never mastered the art of surrendering to my life. Surrendering to work that could be so fulfilling. Instead I enjoy quiet and friends and recharging before another week with my students. I fear if I pull myself here, there and everywhere, I will not give them what they deserve.